A Life You Don’t Live Is Still Lost
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“Una Vita Che Non Vivi É Ancora Persa”
This is the statement you will find outlining the feather in my tattoo. Translated in english it means “A life you don’t live is still lost”. If all of you are familiar with The Goo Goo Dolls, I got this line from one of their songs entitled Before It’s Too Late. I love everything about this song. ..The meaning of every lyric, its tune and melody.. I see flashbacks of my life before my eyes whenever I hear this song, and it inspires me to make the most out of what I have, and where I am, in life.
I chose a feather as my tattoo design because of simple reasons. ..It symbolized freedom. And during the time I was getting it, I was just learning to free myself from all my doubts and regrets, which hindered me from living and reaching my full potential as a person.
The risk that might break you is the one that would save (you). A life you don’t live is still lost. So stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see (that) nothing is real ’til it’s gone.
..The paragraph in the song that I love and live by. I used to be a very risk-free person. As much as I loved to try new things, I would always stick to what I already know, and what I’m comfortable doing. It was only then that I learned that I can do so much more in life, when I broke my barriers and made goals which I never imagined I would achieve.
When I migrated here in the U.S., I hated life. I had a lot of dreams that I needed to leave behind in the Philippines, like my dreams of pursuing a dance career. It was very hard for me to accept my new “home”, and I was close-minded about what opportunities are in store for me here. I still danced, but it became more of a chore for me to go and attend dance classes, rehearsals, and auditions, thinking I’d never get anywhere. I felt stagnant, and my burning passion for it was just gone. So I decided to take a break, even if I knew it was risky to discontinue my training at this point, and it surprisingly did me good. Sometimes, taking a step back from where you are in life let’s you see the whole picture, and it helps you sort things out. Less dancing made way for more time with my family, more time learning to cook, more time discovering the world, and it also helped me find other ways to let my passion for creativity out.
I became more flexible and versatile in life, and I realized that all the while I thought I was either just gonna be a dancer or a nurse (the course I took in college which I don’t really have passion for), I could actually do something else! It’s been trial & error for me, so far, but I believe there are things I have yet to discover.
I used to think that dance is my only solution to everything, and I became miserable trying to force things to work when I know I shouldn’t. I was wasting my days stuck in a ball-in-chain of a situation, closing my doors to other options, and regretting the fact that I left a lot of dance opportunities back home. Learning to overcome my negative mindset freed me from my self-prison, and it paved way into more learning opportunities, giving me more options and making my life a lot less stagnant.
I’ve been a dancer my whole life, and that has become a part of who I am. It is something that’s never gonna change, no matter what I end up doing in life. All I know is that I am a person with huge passion for the arts, and I love pouring my creativity. Fashion, arts & crafts, choreography, design.. Whatever it may be, I will always attach myself with these artsy things, because it’s the life I see myself in, and I am at my best with it.
I still haven’t figured life out, and I don’t think any of us will ever be able to. And that’s just how it is, I have learned to accept that. One thing is for sure, I don’t want to miss out on the beauty of life, and what I can do to inspire others the way life has inspired me. It’s been a long haul, and a tough one, but I realized that sometimes breaking free from your own self is the simplest way to loosen up more and extend your capabilities.
I freed my mind from negativities, and I freed myself towards new possibilities. I have learned to breakaway from the norm, and now everything seems endless. Life became a lot more interesting, and that’s just how I like it.
“So live like you mean it, and love ’til you feel it. It’s all that we need in our lives”
-Goo Goo Dolls
Tattoo design: Mika David
Tattoo artist: Edward Tsai from Resurrection Tattoo Shop
I hope life is treating everybody well! Stay inspired and keep fueling your passion.
Happy weekend, everyone!